What is this teaching pointing at?
Well, just like the previous slogan it emphasises the ultimate aspect of mind. Previously we were enjoined to examine the nature of appearances. What is the nature of what we experience, of all the phenomena which appear to our 'minds eye'? We found that they were empty, and lacking in any solidity or characteristic.
Now we are asked to look again, but this time at that which is looking. What is the nature of the mind, of the awareness within which all these phenomena or dharmas were appearing?
Step back or look deeper. It's not just what we thought was 'out there'. It's 'us' too!
Looking at our awareness itself, how is it? How does it appear?It's harder to see, for me at least, than the 'things' that seem to arise within it. Turning attention away from those arisings, and looking at where they arise, we don't really find anything at all. I look for this awareness, and I don't really find anything. I look for that which looks, and I don't find anything. I look for 'me' and I don't really find anything.
Ultimately, not only does nothing truly arise, but there is nothing which is truly there experiencing this!
Hmm. That can be a little disquieting, at least to our small sense of self, our ego or 'me'.
It's a bit like we've been invited to do the work, to look at all that arises in our minds, and to see through it all, and therefore to be invited to let go at grasping all of that. And now, just when we thought it was safe to go back into the water, just when we've given the ego something safe to hang onto (that all that 'out there' is empty, but at least I'm here, and 'I' can see that!) ... well, no buddy, you're not there either! Take that!
Hmm. Examine. I take this to mean - bring to awareness 'mind' or 'awareness', and not think about it. We turn our gaze as it were to that which is gazing. It's a funny, subtle step .... one which most of us are not much attuned to. We look at the looker, we are aware of awareness itself. At first it's rather like trying to balance something on a needle tip, or razor blade ... we just keeping falling off, into thinking, or 'making sense of it'. But, gradually, we build up some sort of capacity to rest in that awareness, and hold awareness itself in awareness. We rest in minds own nature. For a while (in my case :-)
And we don't really then find anything, though there seems to be something there. Empty, yet seemingly there as we say. That's how it is, that's its Nature.
What of Unborn? Well, my awareness seems to arise and fall as I get lost in distraction or lack of awareness, and then jump back into wakefullness. So how is that not unborn?
Looking at that experience of seeming discontinuity of awareness, I don't find a start or end to awareness, I cannot 'put my finger' on it. There is no edge, no definite moment that I can truly identify when it is or isn't there. That's not to say that it does't seem to arise, or cease, but 'finding' that start or end is impossible. That is unborn.
but actually I think it means more than this, and that's something I don't experience yet.
I think it points to a deeper level of awareness, to a deeper level of mind, Original Mind, which I don't experience yet. That is awareness which doesn't rise or fall as my conscious awareness seems to. Which doesn't switch off when I get lost in distraction, and which doesn't diminish when I lose awareness in sleep. *That* is unborn, unborn in another sense.
But that is for another time, for discovery, not conjecture :-)
3 comments:
Hello Chodpa,
I see three levels of knowing here:
1. Source. Unborn Mind. Deep Ocean. That which does not move or change. Reality. Our Essential Nature as Subject. That which looks through my eyes, your eyes, all eyes. Pure Awareness without object. At this level we ARE the knowledge we seek.
2. Arising phenomena. Time bound birth and death. Surface waves. That which always moves, changes, never repeats itself. Our consciousness of self and others as objects. At this level we know by direct preception.
3. My thoughts, opinions, explanations about (1) and (2) -- once removed from experience, twice removed from Reality. At this level we think we know, and judge others who don't agree.
What astonishes me is our human capacity to live on the far side of experience (or is it the near side?) in the bliss of pure awareness of Unborn Mind. It's as easy as stopping. Simply stopping. So easy it's difficult. To not do. To see that everything is already done. This feels like death to the ego. It feels scary (experience) before it is blissful (beyond experience).
I am bliss covered over by fear. How else could I evolve?
Ron
Excellent
thanks
Kay Hankinson
excellent thank you....
In the world of duality the watcher is also the watched.. I think that they both arise together - thus when one has, as such, dissolved the reality of the object then the reality of the sensory organ that perceives it also dissapates with it.
What purpose is the rose without a nose to smell it and eyes to see it and a brain to enjoy it and a hand to paint or write about it !.. the observed and the observer arise dependent upon each other ?
Thus even when there is the slightest movement / desire of mind stirring the calm waters will manifest this enigmatic duality.
DO memory and language bind us to this duality.. if one has no memory - mental continuum ? - then what can be desired.. when the only memory is of still waters of pure mind what will move away from it ?
In meditation the mere subconscious fact that one must come to and do this and that is the cause for leaving the seat of pure mind ? Duty calls ... one is bound to this existence in some form or another.. ?
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